Last day in the office

Posted by Jeffrey on December 19, 2007

Today, is my last working day in this office. I have been here since Dec 1998, so it has been exactly 9 years.

Starting January, I will work for a different company, have a new boss and of course, will have new team mates. The new place will see me working with a few orang putih - I’m sure I’ll learn different ways of doing things and at the same time learn new things. As you can guess, I’m quite excited with the new place, though I’m not really sure where or how my career will develop with this company, all I know is I am going forward if I remain positive and give my all.

Why change jobs?

I can’t really point it to anything or anyone - I can’t really describe the feeling. Wait let me try.

It’s the feeling of dragging yourself to work, knowing that 3 months from now, you will be doing the same old thing and maybe a year after those 3 months, you are still doing that same thing. The spark has gone, the motivation has bidded its goodbye long time ago and the will to give my all is just nowhere to be seen.

I have the option of staying here, doing the routine tasks and just wait for the dough at the end of the month - but where’s the satisfaction in that?

If 15 years later, when my son is all grown up, he will ask me, “So daddy - are you an important guy in your office?”

I want to be able to answer, confidently, that without me, the company wouldn’t have grown into one of the biggest that it is that day.

Not answering “Emmm… not sure oh. I sit behind my desk just waiting for the tasks to come. I think without me, some projects would be delayed by 2 weeks but I’ll ask my boss for confirmation“.

I think even my poor 32-year old heart is also suffering since I am like, feeling down 95% of time when I am at work.

I want to be a somebody. I want to be in the middle of where all the action is. Not just someone who waits on the wing, finishing tasks which were left incomplete by others who left a few years back. I want to be the one who is responsible in making the all-important decision that can make or break a product’s life or, the company itself!

Yes I know, I can do this anywhere, even in this current company but like I say, the spark has gone. My love for this company has gone. That is why I am really glad that I am moving away, for the good of everyone. They should pay a new guy who will want to give his all to this company.

So, come 2008, I will start a new chapter in my life. One that I will cherish and hopefully, my last company that I will work for. Maybe after another 9 years, it is time for me to start on my own company. But that is still far off, I know I am still raw in terms of experience and skills.

So in the meantime, BRING ON 2008!

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